Well the marvel invention of the computer failed me. Our hard drive crashed, fortunately the people at DELL were really good and sent us a new hardrive. Within two days, we called on Sunday it was here Monday, we had a new one. We lost everything that was saved on the system, though.
Work is presenting another conundrum. My CO said that just 2 months after the baby is born, I and the other 13 COSCOM mothers, would ship out to Iraq. Thanks to congress commanders are no longer required to keep new mothers state side for the 4 month bonding/healing time. I'm not particularly thrilled with this idea. Our tour is expected to last 24 months. Granted that my unit will have already been over there for part of that tour when I am expected to join them, nearly 2 years is just to long to be away from my baby. My little man would be a toddler and I would have missed all of it. I don't know how other mothers do it.
If you leave for 2 yr tours every six months, and during those six months work 14-18 hours a day why have children? How can you expect a child to know you, to love you when they grow up under someone elses care in someone elses home. I suppose if you only have one parent in the military it would be eaiser to keep the other parent alive in the childrens life and the children in the other parents. For both parents to be gone is just too much.
My husband is infatuated with the Army and wants to stay as long as possible. I certainly don't mind. He absolutely loves what he does. To have a job you love is a rare and wonderful thing. For me it was a crazy diversion for 2 years. The baby, through a bit of a kink in the plans. I think that I will not be completing my two years. My tour with the army will end up being about 18 mo instead of 24.
This child is the single most important thing in my life. Everything is about him and waht is beswt for him. I think having at least one parent at home who loves him is one of the most important things in the world. I want to teach him, love him, and be able to keep his father alive in his life while he is doing what most others can't, now to include myself.
Maybe I'm nuts
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